It's Looming....

The time for him to report to the mob site is getting closer and closer. Closer than I care to really think about. Of course do you think he has even begun to pack - NOPE! Not at all. Nothing! He just today, brought home his foot locker for all of his personal items. Seriously, I'm wondering if this would have been easier if it's been done for weeks now? I'm thinking probably because I would have gotten use to seeing the piles of his stuff. Now we're down to the wire and this is consuming his time - my time! And I'm not happy about it.

I also had a final test due for one of my graduate classes this week and I have a group assignment due next week as well. I am so glad that I only decided to take one class this semester! And to think at the beginning of the semester I was thinking it was going to be a really easy semester and was ready to pick up another class.

And to top it all off, I sent all of our requests to the banks to drop the interest rates to 6% due to SCRA back in January in hopes of having it all completed by now. Is it? Of course NOT! I have spent over 4 hours on the phone with banks in the past 2 days. 4 HOURS!! Because that's exactly what I want to be doing right now instead of spending time with my hubby.

Oh yea, and I also told the teacher I work with that I won't be returning next school year. Boy did that suck! Her and I have become great friends this year and we were both looking forward to next school year but I've decided that I just can't handle working 4 days a week, 3 kids, and sports practices at least 2-4 nights a week and still be able to maintain my household while my husband is gone. I'm sure there are some of you out there that can do all that and more, I'm just not feeling up for it.

Needless to say, with all going on and all the goodbye's to my husband I've had to hear over the past 2 weeks, I've been on the verge of a break down. It finally happened this morning - where I just sobbed uncontrollably for about 10 minutes before I was able to collect myself, gather my thoughts and remember that I'm a strong person and I can do this!

Update

I'm still alive.

As time approaches, we're just trying to spend as much time together as a family as possible. Please bear with me while posting is practically non-existent. I promise I will get back into the routine of regular blogging soon. There are lots of feelings and emotions I'd like to discuss but don't want to just yet as I don't want to take time away from our togetherness.

Declutter

I'm feeling very overwhelmed with deployment quickly approaching and I hate that I have no control over it. I'm one that likes to be in control and this is driving me crazy.

So I had an idea to start working on goal #12 early and start working on de-cluttering our house. This way I can at least feel like I have control over something and as a bonus it helps keep my mind off of the inevitable - at least for the time being anyway.

I started tonight on my closet and dresser. Even though I feel that I regularly get rid of clothes, I still managed to get rid of two trash bags full of clothes and another stack of clothes (some with tags still attached!) that I'm hoping to find time to list on Ebay.

Next on my list is to de-clutter the rest of the bedroom. Currently, there are tons of military related books, rank and extra gear spewed throughout. I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do with it all - but I do know that it needs to be removed from my room! (Reminder: Add to the honey-do list of things to get done before the month is over)

Wish me luck on getting through the next few weeks. I'm sure I'll need it.