Monday, July 5, 2010

My Baby Is Three!

My youngest turned three today!  It's so hard to believe that the time has gone by this quickly.  He has grown into a very independent, energetic, smart, handsome little boy before my very eyes!  Of course he's three and so there is also the sassy-ness that comes along with that, but we are trying to squash that pretty quickly.

Of course this is also the first kids birthday that my husband has ever missed and while the kids seem to be holding up just fine I'm the one who is really struggling these last few days!  I completely stressed myself out over his party on Saturday and come to find out, I shouldn't have because besides his parents, my parents and my grandmother - no one bothered to show up!  Actually some of them never even bothered to tell me one way or the other if they were going to come at all!

And what's even more upsetting than that, today on his actual birthday, the only one who called to wish him a happy birthday, was his Daddy!   (Daddy calling is not the upsetting part, the only is)  Can someone please explain to me how my husband can call from 6500+ miles away but not one single family member, from either side of our family, can actually call to wish him a happy birthday!  (Now, I do have to say that my sis, who is on a round the world trip, did do a birthday post for him and I wasn't really expecting her to call.)  I'm crushed! 

Back to the point of this post though.... 

Happy Birthday Dude-y!!  Mommy and Daddy love you very much!

(yes, I call him that and yes is sounds like the same word for poopy.  But that's not that weird because my oldest is called Knucklebutt (which has over the years been shortened to Butt) and my middle son we use to call FatBoy (until he called someone fat one day in the grocery store and didn't know he shouldn't) and my husband and I call each other Shithead and Shitface.)*


*all names truly are given out of love.  And when our oldest asked us (well actually my husband) to stop calling her that out in public, we complied; which we will do with all of them.  The youngest still loves it and gets upset if I call him anything else!  Please... I really don't need anyone to harass me about my kids nicknames today.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Unthinkable

I can't begin to explain how much I miss my husband tonight.  Some horror has struck my neighborhood tonight and really has me shaken up.  I'm not going to go into details tonight - maybe not ever.  At least until I know for sure I have all the facts straight. 

Oh how I wish he could be here holding me tonight......

And not to worry anyone - my husband is fine, I'm fine and my kids are fine. 




Thursday, July 1, 2010

I Miss.....

Here are some snippets from a recent chat with my husband:

3:02 PM me: Miss your smile
  Miss when you squint your eyes
  Miss your touch
  Miss your scent
 
3:03 PM 
  Miss you in bed with me
 
    Miss your arms around me
3:04 PM Miss taking showers with you
  Miss you rubbing my butt
  Miss you scratching my back
3:05 PM Miss sitting around the fire with you
  Miss playing cards
 
3:06 PM Miss your kisses
  Should I keep going?
 anthonylloyd1: you can it's making me smile
3:07 PM 
 me: Miss having to pick out clothes for you
3:08 PM Miss you folding laundry
  Miss cooking with you
  Miss snuggling on the couch with you
  Miss watching Friends or House or Deadliest Catch with you.
3:09 PM anthonylloyd1: i miss....
3:10 PM anthonylloyd1: you rubbing my head while you read a book
  miss cooking breakfast on the weekends
 
  miss you yelling at me to stay on my side of the bed
3:11 PM miss you coming up behind me while I look out the front window
  miss watching you try to pick out clothes at night
  miss kissing you good bye in the morning
3:12 PM miss cuddling up to you at night
 
 
3:13 PM miss kissing your neck
  miss you handing me my towel when I get out of the shower
 
3:14 PM   miss cleaning the dishes after dinner
3:15 PM miss our quality time
 
   miss holding your hand while I drive

I was crying by the end of it then, and I'm crying again now as I re-read all of them.

It's amazing all the little things you take for granted until you don't have them.

I miss you love!  Hurry home!


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This Blog is my outlet. It's where I share my thoughts and feelings. It's a place where I can vent. Not everyone thinks alike. People don't always share the same religious or political views. Some people (like me!) occasionally think in more “colorful” terms than others. Sorry, but I'm a big girl and can use cuss words and talk about not-so-mainstream stuff if I want to. If you find that sort of language offensive / shocking / annoying, you may want to stop reading now. Life as a military wife ain't always pretty. It's my life, though, so don't say I didn't warn you.