I'm not going to lie. It's been a rough day. No, not because I'm getting old! I'm only 29!
But because this is the first time in the past five years that I haven't had my husband by my side to celebrate my birthday with. I knew it was going to be hard, but I guess I didn't expect it to be quite this bad.
I've been quite emotional today - so much so - that even someone saying the nicest thing to me has caused me at times to cry (okay so maybe it's been more than just "at" times). Then they look at me like I'm crazy and of course I'm really in no mood to discuss my feelings and emotions with strangers (except apparently for those strangers in my computer, that is).
My close friends get it though... at least I think they do.
Even if I've not been emotionally stable today, I still have some good birthday stories and memories that I want to share. Just not today. I'm ready to get in bed to get this day over with. (oh yea, wait - the dog sh*t on my bed today - I guess his way of saying WTF - Happy Birthday but where's my Dad?) Hopefully I awaken tomorrow feeling refreshed and ready to share.
This Blog is my outlet. It's where I share my thoughts and feelings. It's a place where I can vent. Not everyone thinks alike. People don't always share the same religious or political views. Some people (like me!) occasionally think in more “colorful” terms than others. Sorry, but I'm a big girl and can use cuss words and talk about not-so-mainstream stuff if I want to. If you find that sort of language offensive / shocking / annoying, you may want to stop reading now. Life as a military wife ain't always pretty. It's my life, though, so don't say I didn't warn you.